Pagdadalamhati | Ikatlo sa Pag-ibig na Hindi

Kung hindi ka rin lang pala magtatagal, sana hindi na kita nakilala at sana ay hindi na lang din kita minahal.

Sana hindi ako nag-aksaya ng panahon sa pagbuo ng masasayang alaala na aking pagdadalamhatian lang ngayon sa tuwing dadapo sa aking isipan.

Sa umaga ay matindi ang pagsikat ni Haring Araw na tila ba gusto na sunugin ang aking damdamin at sabihing hanggang dito na lang. Sa kinahapuna’y parang bumubulong ang malamig na hangin na “wala na sya.” At sa kinagabihan ay tila nauubos ang mga tala, bawat patak ng luha isang tala ang nawawala.

Paano ako magsisimula muli. Paano ko bubuuhing mag isa ang planado nang buhay na kasama ka. Masakit makita ang lahat ng bagay na nakapagpapaalala sa iyo.

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Hindi lang ikaw ang nasasaktan. Doble ang sakit na aking nararamdaman. Ang mawala ka sa piling ko, at makita kang nagdurusa dahil sa aking kagagawan. Pero mauunawaan mo din ito sa takdang panahon.

Wala akong ibang hangad kundi ang mapabuti ka. Nais ko ang iyong kaligayahan sa hinaharap, kahit alam kong hindi ako magiging parte non.

 

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Hihihi nakalimutan ko itong isali. Edit edit lang din. Para tunay na seryeng serye ang dating, kelangan kasali yung mga nauna.

https://aysabaw.wordpress.com/2012/11/12/halik-by-kamikazee/ 

https://aysabaw.wordpress.com/2012/11/09/ang-pag-ibig-na-hindi-ikalawang-yugto/

https://aysabaw.wordpress.com/2012/11/07/ang-pag-ibig-na-hindi/

Liebster Blog Award

This is the second award that I have received since I started blogging and both were given by Shewrites. I would like to thank her for always appreciating whatever comes out of my silly mind.

How does Liebster work?

 

A) You are not allowed to nominate the blog who nominated YOUR own blog.

B) You paste the award picture into your blog.
C) You write up 11 NEW questions directed towards your nominees.

1-2.What’s your favorite song/type of music?

3. Hobby aside from blogging or writing?

4. Define love.

5. What’s your greatest dream?

6. Color that describes your personality.

7. Favorite book.

8-9.Favorite teacher/professor. Describe him/her.

10 – 11.  If you would be something else, what would you be and why?

D) When you receive the award, you must post 11 random facts about yourself.

11 Random FACTS ABOUT MYSELF

  1. I hate cheese and milk
  2. I love using my mom’s old typewriter when I was a kid and I never knew the value of that typewriter till the time I became a secretary.
  3. When I was young, I wanted to be either a band guitarist or a Radio Disc jock (and I still want to be if given a chance)
  4. I know how to flair bottles and I’ve joined flair bartending competitions when I was in college.
  5. I love punk rock music.
  6. I am better of writing heart breaking and sad stories as well as revolutionary papers than any other topics.
  7. I can remember my dreams clearly.
  8. I love wallets and notebooks.
  9. I am a frustrated singer
  10. I love mocha frappuccino
  11. I love Mitch Albom’s books.

E) To answer the 11 questions asked by shewrites

1)      How do you like your readers to call you? Sabaw

2)      From where did you get your idea in naming your blog? Aysabaw is derived from (wow etymology) Aisa which is my nick name when I was a kid and sabaw is a Tagalog word that means soup. What’s the connection between the 2? I also don’t know.

3)      What is the thing that you are proud about your blog? I’m proud of…getting 2 blog awards so far 🙂

4)      Where do you usually get your inspiration in writing? From my feelings or from the music that I am listening to.

5)      Why do you blog by the way? I’m better at writing my feelings than saying it.

6)      One thing that most people don’t know about you? I am a very insecure person. Doesn’t look like because I’m good at hiding it.

7)      Your greatest fear in life? Cockroaches and bugs.

8)      A hobby that you can’t give up aside from blogging? Playing the guitar

9)      What is the nick your family used to call you when you are a child which you hate the most? I never hated my nick names.

10)  What is your OST for yourself/ life? Time of your life by Greenday

11)  Worst habit that you’ve successfully overcome? Can’t think of one.

 

F) Pass the award onto 11 other blogs (while making sure that you notify the blogger that you nominated them.

 

http://sasaliwngawit.wordpress.com/

– a great blog, thanks Ate San

http://jakesprinters.wordpress.com/

– great sunday post themes

http://stainlessthoughts.wordpress.com/

– great blog

http://livingtheseasons.com/

– on my top recent comment list, thanks a ton

http://nextpictureplease.wordpress.com/

– great photography

http://batopik.wordpress.com/

– cute

http://25pesocupnoodles.wordpress.com/

– great blog

http://francineinretirement.wordpress.com/

– I love the way she comments : Be Encouraged! Be Blessed! So positive 🙂

http://adinparadise.wordpress.com/

– great blog

http://miljoanne.wordpress.com/

– great blog, we could have met here in UAE 🙂

http://patriciaddrury.com/

– great photos

These are amazing bloggers. Do check out their blogs!

These bloggers have been part of my first few months of blogging and I really appreciate their support, likes and comments (yeah right, thank you speech -__-).

Halik by Kamikazee

Sa mga nakibasa at naki emote sa ikalawang yugto ng Pag-ibig na Hindi, (may Pag-ibig na Hindi part 1 pero walang OST eh) eto ang acoustic version ng Halik ng Kamikazee ang Official Sound track ng  ikalawang parte ng mini series ko. (Naks! Nag-oofficial sound track? Feeler)

Sa mga nakakaalam ng kantang to, jamming na.

Sa mga hindi nakikinig or hindi mahilig sa mga maiingay na banda, just try to listen. Acoustic version na ang nilagay ko para hindi kayo maingayan. Try and you’ll appreciate their music.

Hindi ako promoter ng Kamikazee (although paborito ko sila) he he, gusto ko lang itong kanta.

Long live OPM \m/

Ang Pag-ibig na Hindi – Ikalawang Yugto

Ang isa ay gusto nang mamaalam at ang isa ay gustong pa ring manatili.

Sa kaalinsanganan ng panahon ay tila narining ng langit ang hiling ng mga nauuhaw kaya biglang umulan ng malakas. Malalaki ang patak ng ulan na masakit pag tumatama sa bumbunan. Dali dali sumilong ang mga tao sa kani kaniyang kubo. Walang mapuntahan ang magkasintahan kaya dali dali na lang silang tumungo sa una nilang nakita, ang kubo ng life guard. Dali dali nilang inakyat ang matarik na hagdan at doo muna nanatili.

Umupo silang magkatapat at nakasandal sa magkabilang dingding ng kubo. Yumuko na ang isa at nagsimulang humagulgol na tila sinasabayan sya ng lalo pang lumalakas na iyak ng langit. Walang magawa ang isa kundi tumanaw sa malayo.

Sa katagala’y napagod na din ang mga matang namumugto na at nakatulog. Tumabi ang isa at pinasandal sa kanyang balikat upang makatulog ng maayos, hinahaplos ang noo sabay hinalikan ito. Hindi malaman ang nararamdaman. Nalilito pa. Tama bang lumisan at hindi na lang ipaglaban.Masakit. Pero ano ba ang nararapat? Hindi nya na maintindihan.

Ansarap sa pandinig, huni ng ibon, tunog ng alon, musika ni inang kalikasan. Pagmulat ng namumugtong mga mata ay kay ganda ng sikat ng araw na parang hindi umulan ng malakas kagabi. Inikot ang mata sa paligid.

“Pag-gising ko wala ka na.”

 

Halik by Kamikazee

Kumupas na
Lambing sa yong mga mata
Nagtataka kung bakit yakap mo’y ‘di na nadarama
May mali ba akong nagawa? Tila nag-iba ang mga kilos mo at salita
Bakit kaya?
Parang hindi ka na masaya

Ika’y biglang natauhan
Umalis kaagad ng hindi nagpapaalam
Ang sabi ko hindi kita mamimiss
Hanggang kelan ito matitiis

Ika’y biglang natauhan
Umalis kaagad ng wala man lang paalam
Pag nawala doon lang mamimiss
Hanggang kelan ito matitiis

Alam ko na
Magaling lang ako sa umpisa
Umasa ka pa saakin
Mga pangakong nauwi lang sa wala
Nasayang lang ang iyong pagtitiyaga
Wala ka nga pala
At puro lang ako salita
Kaya pala
Pag-gising ko wala ka na

Ika’y biglang natauhan
Umalis kaagad ng hindi nagpapaalam
Ang sabi ko hindi kita mamimiss
Hanggang kelan ito matitiis

Ika’y biglang natauhan
Umalis kaagad ng wala man lang paalam
Pag nawala doon lang mamimiss
Hanggang kelan ito matitiis

Ika’y biglang natauhan
Umalis kaagad ng hindi nagpapaalam
Ang sabi ko hindi kita mamimiss
Hanggang kelan ito matitiis

Ngayon ko lang natutunan
Nasubukang mabuhay ng para bang may kulang
Pag nawala doon lang mamimiss
Paalam sa halik mong matamis

Ang Pag-ibig na Hindi

Maalinsangang gabi. Patawid ng kalsada ang magkasintahan. Pinagmamasdan sila ng mga drayber na nasa bungad ng mahabang linya ng mga sasakyan na naghihintay sa berdeng ilaw para sila ay makausad.

Patuloy ang paglalakad. Tahimik. Walang may gustong magsalita.

Pagod at uhaw, narating din nila ang tabing dagat. Mainit ang panahon pero malamig ang hanging sumasabay sa mga alon na dumadausdos sa dalampasigan.

Sabay na naupo sa buhanginan kung saan ang kanilang mga talampakan ay naabot ng maliliit na lang na mga alon.

Tahimik pa din. Pakiramdaman. Nakikinig sa alon at sa mga taong nagkakatuwaan habang nagtatampisaw sa malamig na tubig. Ang isa ay nakatingin sa isa at ang isa nama’y nakatingin sa mga bituin sa kalangitan. Nangigilid na ang mga luha. Ramdam na ramdam na ang sakit na dulot nang napipintong pamamaalam. Sa ilang minutong pag upo ay unti unting naaalala ang mga masasayang panahong pinagsamahan na lalong nakakadagdag sa sakit na nararamdaman.

Parehas na nagmahal, pero bakit walang pinatunguhan? Bakit walang pinagkasunduan?

Ang isa ay gusto nang mamaalam at ang isa ay gustong pa ring manatili.

The Laine Blogger Award

 

This is the first award that I’ve received and it feels great! Thank you so much to She Writes who continously visits my blog and well,  appreciates it (so happy ^__^).

The Laine Blogger Award’s mechanics are as follows:

1.Link Back to the Blogger who awarded you.
2. Blog about your award.
3. Give the award to 5 bloggers and let them know

In return, I also want to acknowledged and give this blog award to the following blogs and bloggers who and which have inspired me and for sure other bloggers as well to pursue this passion that we share.

Sa Saliw ng Awit

Jakesprinters

Cee

25pesocupnoodles

batopik

These bloggers have been part of my new blog-life, and most specially Ms. Sheladyanne thank you once more :).

Their blogs are something to look forward to.

Story Challenge : Letter S

 

Sailing

by Christopher Cross

Well, it’s not far down to paradise, at least it’s not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away and find tranquility
Oh, the canvas can do miracles, just you wait and see.
Believe me.

It’s not far to never-never land, no reason to pretend
And if the wind is right you can find the joy of innocence again
Oh, the canvas can do miracles, just you wait and see.
Believe me.

[Chorus]
Sailing takes me away to where I’ve always heard it could be
Just a dream and the wind to carry me
And soon I will be free

Fantasy, it gets the best of me
When I’m sailing
All caught up in the reverie, every word is a symphony
Won’t you believe me?

[Chorus]

Well it’s not far back to sanity, at least it’s not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away and find serenity
Oh, the canvas can do miracles, just you wait and see.
Believe me.

 

 

For more S Stories please click here.

Sunday Post : Wonderful

There’s one song and one photo that came into my mind when I saw this Sunday Post : Wonderful, and here it is:

 

What a Wonderful World

 

What a Wonderful World by Louie Armstrong

I see trees of green…….. red roses too
I see em bloom….. for me and for you
And I think to myself…. what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue….. clouds of white
Bright blessed days….dark sacred nights
And I think to myself …..what a wonderful world.

The colors of a rainbow…..so pretty ..in the sky
Are also on the faces…..of people ..going by
I see friends shaking hands…..sayin.. how do you do
They’re really sayin……i love you.

I hear babies cry…… I watch them grow
They’ll learn much more…..than I’ll never know
And I think to myself …..what a wonderful world

The colors of a rainbow…..so pretty ..in the sky
Are there on the faces…..of people ..going by
I see friends shaking hands…..sayin.. how do you do
They’re really sayin…*spoken*(I ….love….you).

I hear babies cry…… I watch them grow
*spoken*(you know their gonna learn
A whole lot more than I’ll never know)
And I think to myself …..what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself …….what a wonderful world.