2019 has been good to me. Not perfect but I guess it was better than 2018. I had less drama but I still had a lot of fights. I met a lot of people. I learned a lot.
I Don’t Need To Attend Anger Management Class Anymore
I was already at the verge of sending myself to an Anger Management Class because of my temper. I easily get angry at just anything.
For unknown reasons, I just changed in an instant. I have been keeping my cool. It was strange though. I still get angry easily when somebody does something stupid but I don’t burst out like I used to do. I don’t shout. And this has been noticed by my colleagues as well. One of them was teasing me and he was surprised at my very calm reaction when he was expecting an anger outburst.
I am thinking about how and why these changes occurred. Is it because I lost passion for work? Is it because I aged? Or because I learned?
I Still Fight
I have already calmed down big time but it doesn’t mean I stopped fighting. I still have very stiff neck specially when it comes to work principles. And I won’t let something go without giving a fight. But nowadays I choose my battles.
One of my previous mentors said he will never put up a fight if he knew already that he will lose. So we have to choose our battles wisely. And we have to be prepared before running into the battle. I have brought this principle with me from the day he said it but I never applied until recently.
I still fight but not head on anymore. I learned how to fight quietly as well and it seem more effective than a head on battle.
I Met a Lot and Learned a Lot
Maldives is special in a way. I see a lot of popular and influential people walking on the streets of Male’ in shirt and pants and flip flops, so simple, so unassuming. My colleague and I met the country’s President in a random event and took a selfie with him. I mean, where else in the world can you randomly meet a country’s president and take a selfie?
This place is really special.
Imagine the event that we successfully organised was attended by one of the most influential woman in Maldives business and Dive Scene, Maldives’ Free Dive record holder and a Parliament Committee.
Imagine meeting a world champion and double world record holding freediver, welcoming him to the airport and escorting him to the island.
Imagine working with one of the top 4 kite boarders of this country.
And all these people I’ve met are so kind and down to Earth. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed but also humbled to be around these people.
On my last trip home, my mom asked me when am I going to settle back home for good and until when will I work abroad? I could not even answer her.
That made me think though. I’ve been away for 14 years. And it seems that I don’t have any plans of settling home.
I feel that I am becoming very comfortable with the island life. I get my meals prepared for me daily. All I have to do is go to the canteen. I don’t have to rush into traffic to go to work. I just need to take 10 to 15 steps from my room. I don’t spend anything except some personal stuff and snacks. I get my uniform washed and ironed for me so I only need to wash my personal clothes.
Going back home means leaving this comfortable lifestyle. But then, also, I am not getting any younger and I am usually away from my husband and family for most of the days in a year and I feel like I’ve been ‘wasting’ away my life not being with them. And then again, the thought of the earnings that I get here that I won’t be able to get back home, takes me back to square one again.
2019 is a Year of Experiences, Learning and Changes
I’ve met a lot of people this year, experienced a lot and changed a lot. I can say that this has been a year of growth for me on personal and career basis. And with this, I look forward to all the new experiences and learning that the new year is about to bring.
How about you? How has 2019 treated you?