Today is my 5th day without any caffeine intake.
Five days ago, my friend and I wanted to practice free diving hence I did not drink coffee. Coffee is not allowed when free diving.
That morning I was walking like a zombie. Yawning every few minutes. No energy. My eyes, teary. Dizzy. By afternoon, I already felt the impending headache.
I wasn’t able to practice properly because I wasn’t feeling good.
By evening, I had two take two pills for headache.
I decided then not to drink coffee anymore because it is very difficult to part ways with it when I need to.
The second day was the same. I cannot work properly and I only want to sleep. I was dying to have my lunch break so I can take a nap.
I just wanted to sleep the whole time. So I slept after lunch. I slept while at the staff ferry too. Everyone was making fun of me asking why I was so tired. They asked if I snorkeled the whole day for me to be that tired. I wanted to explain myself but that wouldn’t help and nobody will understand what I was going through anyway.
Nobody will really understand.
Whenever I feel sleepy, I always want to go to the canteen and click that button on the coffee machine.
But I try not to give in to what my brain tells me: JUST ONE BLOODY CUP AND YOU WILL BE FINE!
I think my reliance to coffee is already bad because I am at a point where I feel I can’t work or think without drinking coffee first.
I try to replace it with hot chocolate instead but I don’t get the kick that I need to be fully operational.
Change is really difficult but I just need to do this as I can’t keep on relying to caffeine. It’s all in the mind, maybe. Or it’s all in the caffeine.
Friends, please don’t send me instagrammable coffee photos.
I’d love to hear from you!