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I had a very colourful and musical March. It was a very busy month for me and time flew so fast that it’s almost April.  Being busy made me feel very tired and over the last few days I felt that my body was trying to recuperate and all I wanted to do was sleep and sleep and sleep.

March wasn’t the happiest of month, I had highs and lows. I had an argument with the BB. Some unhealed wounds reopened. There had been a lot of changes in the work place and it doesn’t feel as good anymore.

On Books

I have been reading the same book for the last month and I am not even halfway. The book isn’t that interesting, plus I was extremely busy.

On Movies

I watched Battleship Island and it’s kinda hard core. Quite heavy and too graphic, though it was a good movie and I’m not saying this just because of Song Jong Ki.

I also watched There’s Something About Mary, like for the first time (ha ha). It’s just a feel good movie that everyone must see or see again. Cameron Diaz is just timeless. Build Me Up Buttercup became my OST over the last few days.

Let Me Borrow Some Lines

I saw this, somewhere, and it just, tore my heart.

“We all have a certain story that we do not share out loud because we are afraid that nostalgia will come in series of waves and drown us. We all know a certain name that we rarely mention anymore because it leaves a bitter taste in our tongue yet makes our heart skip a beat. We all know a familiar voice that is slowly fleeting into oblivion but we always hear it when their favorite song plays on the radio. We all know a familiar face that we desperately hoped we will see every morning when we wake up but is now a part of the group of faces that we once knew and trying to forget. And for me? It’s you. It will always be you.”

And with this, I suddenly remembered the song Scars by Papa Roach

I tear my heart open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is

That I care too much

My scars remind us

That the past is real

I tear my heart open

Just to feel

 

I don’t know if I was just becoming emotional lately but some songs and lines, do they go well with wine? (Just because it rhymes?)

Again, borrowing another line from my colleague.

With feelings, we need alcohol.

~ Boycott President

Boycott President is one of my colleagues who looks like a robot that doesn’t feel anything so it’s quite hilarious for him to say the line. BTW, he is aware that we call him Annoying Robot so no colleagues were harmed while writing this.

My Musical March

Earlier this month, I mentioned about our performance during the staff gathering and just few days ago we performed in front of the guests. Ok, so I’m kinda expecting that the next thing I will write about is my album release LOL. My singing partner got me annoyed with her non-stop complaints about how nobody clapped for us.

I remembered one of those radio interviews with one of the best acoustic guys in the Philippines now. He was asked about his most memorable performance(s).  He said that he had a lot, and that lot included one night in a bar where there was only one person watching him. His voice was kinda shaking while sharing that experience and I wanted to cry for him while listening to his live interview.

I wanted to share that to my colleague and tell her that not getting applauded is not the end of the world but some people are not worth wasting my saliva for. So I just kept thinking of that guy, Johnoy Danao and what he is now compared to that night when he only had one audience.

Clearly, this is love. And music. And passion.

So My Musical March is ending soon and it was quite a roller coaster ride.  All I can say is that I am happy to be able to feel all the emotions I’ve felt as they made me feel so alive.

I am looking forward to what April has to offer. How about you? How did your March go?