I can’t believe it’s already February. What happened to January? Where did it go? Was it blown by the wind?
January was a happy month for me and I can’t believe it. No lonely nights. No crying myself to sleep nights. Just a little bit of anger outbursts.
For those who have read my post about my New Year’s Resolution, I am happy to say that I was able to keep up with it. It is quite difficult to maintain composure but I was able to manage. I got a bit of outbursts but on a low level. I proudly told my office mate yesterday about this and she was like ‘it’s only January, you have 11 months to go. Let’s see.’ She have seen me during my best and worst at work (we even had fights LOL) so her statement is a tease and at the same time a challenge for me so I will try my best.
Sometimes I feel that I am undergoing some anger & sadness management therapy or meditation or retreat where I am the patient as well as the therapist. It’s sad to be alone in this battle but this is life. Sometimes we have to face certain battles alone specially if it’s a battle against our self.
I look back and try to understand how my January went and how I was able to maintain peace and happiness and this is how the month went:
I spent more time with people and less time with my bed
I used to have a routine earlier. Work from 8:30am to 6pm. Swim at 6pm. Have dinner at 7:30 pm. Go to my room from 8pm and sleep from 10pm onward (sometimes 9pm) or go back to the office to work again until 11pm.
But this time I made a slight change. I started playing billiards after dinner, on random days, no matter how bad a billiard player I am. I started going to the bar and hang out with friends. Earlier, I thought hanging out and just chatting with people while having some drinks is a waste of time and is just for people who have nothing to do on their spare times. I’d rather read or write than waste time but I realized it is also an important part of life.
I learned some new things
I like learning new things and recently I learned how to edit videos, and I am so excited to get more contents to edit.
I also learned a Dhivehi song. I can’t believe I learned how to sing a foreign song and even play it on my guitar. Learning a language is difficult but there’s two ways one can learn it quickly. Love or music. Or both.
I tried not to overwork
I tried not to come back to the office in the evening even though I have around 80 unread mails lying on my inbox upon leaving the office.
I tried not to overthink
I have this habit of over thinking. I think about bad things that happened or was done to me for hours and even days. It’s like a movie on repeat in my head so I try to divert my thoughts into something more positive.
I laughed more. And I laughed louder.
I kept on posting dumb instastories
You know what’s the best part of creating the stupid stories that I post on insta? Is that before any of my followers see my story (and die laughing), I laugh my ass out while creating the stories.
I danced like no one’s watching
And I really didn’t care.
I ran to the window every morning
And smiled at the sight of the world filled with sunshine.
So I have happily waved January goodbye and I am looking forward to a hopefully happier February.
How about you? How did your January go?