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Dear Reader,

I hope this post finds you well as I am so while writing this.

I would like to apologize in advance for this weird post (email) format but I couldn’t find any other way to write my feelings down other than this.

I have been very sad and hurt over the last few weeks or months and you might have seen the reflections of these feelings on my previous posts. I didn’t want to brood over negativity however, during the saddest moments of my life, I just let myself feel whatever I felt that moment. I didn’t try to look happy when deep inside I was crumbling.

However, like the bad weather, sadness won’t stay for very long.  Like the dark clouds that covered us here for several days, my sadness were all driven away by the winds and the sun has finally shone on me.

I am really happy since yesterday and to be honest I cannot contain it. Like a child I kept singing and running and jumping around. I feel like I’m about to burst because of all the happiness inside. I am honestly afraid of being too happy, as usually, after being so happy, sorrow comes.

However, if I have given sadness the right to take over me for some days, I am also giving this same right to happiness to take over me. I will just let myself feel whatever I feel at the moment.

Yesterday, I woke up early and was so happy to see the beautiful sunrise. We sailed out of our lagoon for big game fishing.

Nothing really makes me feel so free than being out on the sea. Feeling the cool morning breeze kissing my cheeks as I sip my coffee while watching the sunrise and listening to the waves is nothing else but amazing.

Not more than 30 minutes of sailing did we get our first catch. A medium sized Wahu as the locals call it and I took that as a sign that we will have a great fishing trip and we really did.

While fishing, we kept on seeing dolphins. Some from afar, some even came close to the boat.  I kept telling myself, “such a lucky day!” And it was indeed.

After fishing for a good 3 hours and after getting a good catch, we decided to jump off the boat and snorkel.

I told one of my colleagues that I wanted to free dive and so we did. I was so happy when he told me the approximate depth that I could reach is about 10 to 12 feet. I am so looking forward then to exceeding this on my next snorkeling / free diving trip.

I felt that the heavens really showered me with blessings yesterday and this was really the highlight of my day and I cannot get over it.

We saw dolphins a few meters away from where we were snorkeling. My colleague and I tried to swim as fast as we could to get close to them but they disappeared. However, when we looked down, they were there playing in the deep. We dived but we really couldn’t get closer. I wish I had the ability to dive deeper but since I could not, I look forward to improving my free diving skills so in case this luck happens to me again in the future, then I am ready.

I have always asked the locals if they have ever came close to dolphins while swimming and a lot of them told me they haven’t. So this is something rare. Swimming with the dolphins is something I have been hoping for, and though I wasn’t able to come very close to them yesterday, I was still very happy with that experience to the point that I couldn’t sleep last night no matter how tired I was because I kept on imagining the dolphins.

So I end this post with a smile on my face and I hope I have put one on yours too. And if you are feeling sad or down at this time, feel free to borrow some of my happiness.

Looking forward to sharing some more happiness with you.

Best Regards,

Aysa