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It was that one day a week ago. I was so busy and I didn’t want to be disturbed by my office mate who was constantly on calls so I’ve put my headphones on and played a track on youtube. Some light alternative song and left it on autoplay. Random songs kept on playing.

I was busy copying and pasting figures on excel sheet when this song played, Everybody’s Changing by Keane. I didn’t know the title of the song that time, neither Keane. But it was a familiar tune, something I felt like I’ve heard somewhere, sometime ago.

So little time
Try to understand that I’m
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody’s changing
And I don’t feel the same

You’re gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody’s changing
And I don’t feel right

I’ve changed a lot over the past year. In general and even in the way I write. You might have noticed it.

I haven’t written anything hilarious for a long time and I asked myself why. I looked back at my funny posts and tried to remember the story behind them.

I realized I haven’t written anything funny because I haven’t experienced anything absurd here unlike in Dubai. I don’t get pushed by hundreds of people when getting in the metro (train), I don’t get discriminated when going to high end shops or cafes, I don’t get my rice and TJ hotdogs stolen by flatmates, and I don’t sit inside a salon for 10 to 12 hours to get my hair re-bonded.

My recent posts were all a bit serious. Either realizations or emotional dump-posts. I feel like I’m losing my ‘sabaw’ identity. I don’t know if this is because of the people I talk with daily, or because I spend so much time with the stingrays and trigger fishes or this is the effect of the island life.

I’m not sure if this change in my writing style is for the better. But hopefully, it is.