If You Only Knew

There are times when I just want to be alone. When I just want to tuck myself under my blanket and read a book for hours or until I fall asleep. These are the times when I don’t want to talk to anyone, even to myself. I just want to lie down and let my thoughts drift away into fantasy land even just for a few hours.

Everyone here (in WP, or almost everyone if not all) would surely understand this. You all have moments like this. And whether you have some self-issues to solve or just that super introversion takes over, you just want to be alone.

These are the times when I don’t talk a lot, even to friends and they would most likely find me staring at nothingness. And these are the times when I get unsolicited advices directly or indirectly.

I don’t mind getting advices from anyone but sometimes they aren’t really helping. They give advices as if if they know better.

I recently switched on my lone-time-mode and I immediately saw a facebook status pertaining to me and my mood. I know for sure, it was for me.

The last line of the status said, relax my friend.

I grinned. I wanted to tell that person, if you only knew how I feel. How I am trying to figure out how to do this impossible task  given to me. How I am trying to figure out what’s going on with my body and why is this happening. How I’m trying to figure out what to do when sometimes I feel like I’m about to die – ok, this part is a bit exaggerated, but who knows. I wanted to tell all of these, but I couldn’t.

I honestly haven’t figured out what to do. But I thought, how easy this could be, if I only knew what to do. This could be as easy as posting an unsolicited advice on facebook.

I wanted to tell that person, if you only knew, I wonder if you could still say, relax my friend. I wanted to tell this, but I couldn’t. And I wouldn’t.

Author: aysabaw

Aysa is a stubborn island girl, drinking more than 3 cups of coffee a day, swimming with the reef sharks, turtles and parrot fishes almost everyday. If she is not reading her books, writing something comical, leaving rubbish comments on your posts or strumming her guitar, then she's up to some mischief. View all posts by aysabaw